It’s been a while since I’ve written anything here, although that’s not due to a lack of training or of will. I made the terrible mistake of getting back into World of Warcraft, which for the first week or so ate up all my time, until I got it under control. You’d think a guy who has had to break WoW addiction not once but twice would have figured this out by now. The fact that I got my play under control in just a week, though, is a testament to how far I’ve come in terms of self-discipline, as well as a signpost telling me how much farther I have to go.
I’ve been doing regular workouts and meditation, lots of thinking, and am in the process of getting a new teacher over at TOTJO. My potential teacher and I are being very careful, though, since my rushed selection last time didn’t exactly end well. Hopefully this will end up better; I feel I do a lot better in training when I have an actual teacher as opposed to just written lessons.
As for the IJRS stuff, I’m working on that at the moment; I’ve kind of stalled on the creed exercise. I honestly don’t know what my three biggest beliefs are. I guess maybe the underlying assumptions I make about the universe? Things like “I exist” or “there is a structure to the universe”. These are things pretty much everyone believes, however, so I’m not sure how that would work out. This’ll take some more thought.
In other, better news, my workouts are doing well; I’m losing weight and getting stronger and faster. Hopefully soon I’ll be within the weight requirements of the National Guard; I’m looking forward to doing some military service.
Until next time.
I fear you may be thinking too hard. If you have had this long to try to figure out your beliefs and not gotten anywhere it’s time for a new strategy. First, if you’re stuck on something ask for help. There’s no need to sit in limbo waiting for inspiration.
You don’t need to come up with the three biggest beliefs. Just come up with three. Heck, start with small ones and just start writing. You may find by the end you’ll have stumbled on themes you can call some pretty big beliefs. And if not, you’ll still have learned something – that’s the whole point. Don’t stress on it.
Something to keep in mind…having a dedicated mentor is fine, but you have access to multiple Jedi at the Institute that you aren’t utilizing. You may be forcing a situation that isn’t meant to happen right now. Maybe it’ll work out, I don’t have a clue. But I know that if things continually don’t work out then it’s a time to look at things differently and consider the Force is trying to tell you something that you aren’t hearing.
Either way, good job on the fitness stuff! That’s awesome!
By: butchjax on May 30, 2010
at 5:58 pm
Just letting you know I won’t be checking your blog often so if you post a new assignment be sure to let us know on the forum. Thanks!
By: butchjax on August 15, 2010
at 2:24 am