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For a while now, I’ve stayed off of the online Jedi community, for a number of reasons.  While I have continued to train, I felt that I was not able to complete the types of training required by groups like TOTJO and IJRS, due to impatience and lack of commitment.  I found it difficult to complete (or even start) many exercises, and had trouble keeping in touch with teachers.  In addition, I felt disconnected from the Jedi community, due to feeling little compulsion to interact on forums.  These are things I had to fix before I could even contemplate trying to complete my formal training again.  A quick look through the logs of this blog shows many times when I ambitiously restarted my training, only to quit weeks (sometimes days!) later.

Since then, I have purposely avoided the Internet’s Jedi community, focusing on solo training.  I’ve concentrated on learning and understanding the Jedi Code, developing my physical fitness and martial arts skills, cultivating knowledge and learning via reading and college classes, and developing stronger willpower and a better work ethic.  I’ve made great strides in that, and feel that I may finally be ready to continue my Jedi training proper.

I’ve put a lot of thought into this, and delayed my return several times, simply because I wanted to be sure I was properly prepared to continue my training.

My goals are to participate more actively on forums, and to try to complete at least one exercise from TOTJO or IJRS each week.  I tried to rush in the past, to push myself to complete a lot in a small time, but I have come to understand that taking my time and training at a slower pace leads to greater gains in the long run, and helps me avoid overstimulation and burnout.

I’ll start posting more work here in the near future.

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